2019-2020 has been a time of learning. I've had to face some difficult truths (I sometimes have to be the bad guy to stand up for what I believe in and to not be taken advantage of) and I've lost friends in the process. At first it devastated me, angered me, saddened me, but I've been able to make peace with the decisions I've made and move on to new journeys in my life. Obstacles and walks through fire are designed to strengthen. They are essential in guiding us to becoming better versions of ourselves. We can either sit and cry and let those struggles dominate our thoughts, or we can learn to grow from them. My song selection on this album is a variety of anger, sadness, and slowly coming back to myself.
Written for someone I still think highly of. We mutually hurt each other. But if I need to take the role of villain for this person to feel better about the separation, I have no problem doing so. Besides, it made a kick-ass song.
don't. test. me.
First of all, I just was dying for an excuse to write out my anger. When a public social media battle provoked me and began to release my inner teenager (aka the Beast), I decided to forego immature social media wars and focus on how I best vent my anger - in song.
I would write
Written for a friend who I adore. A friend who suffers deeply from depression.
As someone who suffers her own inward battles, I totally get how the outside world
sometimes holds no power over one's struggles. I was helpless as I wrote this.
But I think it got the message across.
The aftermath of a war usually holds a somber view. What was it all for? Was my reaction too much? This song helped me piece together what happened in my mind and I came to the conclusion that I felt what I did was right. Nobody could ask for more. It may not coincide with the beliefs of others, but I did my best.